Tonight I am compelled to share about an emotional release I had during today’s NAET appointment. Although I am emotionally drained right now, I feel it is the best time to write this all down and share my thoughts and feelings.
My healing journey has proven that my body’s intelligence is far greater than I ever could have imagined. Prior to working on each new layer, my body has brilliantly expressed what is needed to be revealed for the lesson and release that is in front of me. This topic alone is one to be saved for another blog, but right now I want to discuss what happened today.
For the past four days or so I have been feeling bone pain in my hips and legs. I was barely able to get out of bed or sit at my desk to work each day, and tossing and turning every ten minutes, as the discomfort and pain overtook my sleep at night.
Today during my NAET appointment I spoke with my practitioner about the hip pain. I thought it was possibly coming from the Diflucan I have been taking to clear the systemic yeast in my body. I asked her to check and see if I was becoming sensitive to the medication. Much to my surprise, she said that my body is doing well with the medicine. She investigated further and found that the pain was actually trapped emotions in my bones from the trauma.
To be honest, my first response was “Fuck”. I didn’t want to face any more emotions around the trauma. I didn’t want to hear that I was still being affected by it all. Yet, I’ve learned that when it’s time to deal with something (peel away another layer), it shows up in my body screaming and yelling until I face it. So I stepped into courage and jumped right in.
We traced it back to two incidences at the ages of 8 and 14.
- At age 8 I was scared of a teacher at my school (he most likely triggered something in me regarding the 6-year-old molestation).
- At age 14 I had no control over myself during the group molestation.
The emotions of fear and being out of control have been trapped in my bones since those times, and my recent bone pain was my body’s way of saying it was time to heal it. Crazy – I know!!!
During the releasing she had me visualize my 8 and 14-year-old selves, and each time I began to immediately cry from what I call “the depths of my soul”. The tears were spontaneous and instantaneous, once again proving I can’t possibly be making this stuff up! Next, I visualized myself releasing the emotions into the heavens and standing tall knowing I was free from the hold those emotions had on me. The entire process took about ten minutes, and she said the pain will most likely be gone by tomorrow. (I will keep you posted on that).
It was absolutely beautiful, and very hard at the same time. Each of these releases is like a small miracle happening within my own body. I feel so blessed, and my heart is full of gratitude for those that are assisting me in this beautiful journey as I continue to release all that is not serving me.
Our bodies are amazing! They are intuitive and brilliant. They know exactly what we need and when we need it once we chose to heal. If you are ready to let go of all that is holding you back and step into your greatness, I have three suggestions on how to get started:
- Start saying YES to a full and complete healing
- Each day, ask God/Spirit to show you the truth of who you are
- Find the right support team to help it all unfold
~ Many blessings on your healing journey ~