Today was an eyeopening day for me! As mentioned in a previous blog, my husband and I got into a pretty big argument the other night. The next morning I broke out in rashes all over my body, and my body began shaking uncontrollably. Because of previous breakouts and similar reactions, I was completely convinced that this was some sort of trauma once again being released from my body. Boy was I was wrong!
I went through two days of hell. Literally, if I believed in a hell, which I do not, I imagine it would be a bunch of people sitting around itching uncontrollably for the rest of eternity 🙁 – yuck! – I digress 🙂
Moving on, I spent two full days experiencing severe pain and suffering, even to the extent that I was begging with God that if he took it all away I would spend the rest of my life helping others, as I never want anyone to have to go through what I went through!
When I went to see Dr. Gary Erkfritz and Grace, the amazing NAET practitioners that you will hear much more about, I was surprised to learn that the “attack” was actually me taking on much of my husband’s fears and anguish! “What? How is that possible?” I asked myself. Well, after seeing the viles that came up during the treatment: Fear, love, distrust, shaky, skin, sympathetic nervous system, and histamine, it all started to make sense. Dr. Gary even said that the shakiness was how my husband was feeling inside – which made perfect sense to me as he has a tendency to keep everything in until he lets it all out in a big way!
So, my next comment went a little like this: “How the hell do I not let that happen again?” Grace went on to explain that, as an Empath, it is important to understand how easy it is to take on other people’s energy. I had been told many times in my life that I was an Empath. Not understanding what that really meant in my life, I always downplayed it, and carried on with the conversation. So, now I get to learn more about it and understand it further, so that I can be more in control of my own body. In fact, I came away with today’s appointment understanding that I am really in the midst of a much bigger change in my life than I realized! And I say, “bring it on”! I am ready for the change. I am choosing to grow and live a life of peace. I choose freedom, and that means truly standing in the truth of who I am, and embracing all my gifts!
Upon coming home, I had a wonderful evening with my husband and we spoke about the argument a bit. I noticed during two different times that I was beginning to itch and feel anxious. Both times I ran upstairs, shook it all off, saged myself and put a protective shield around my body, which allowed me to go back down and carry on the conversation. I did it! I stopped the reaction! This was huge for me, and I am excited to continue practicing this in my everyday life, as I now understand the role that being an Empath will play in my choice to embrace freedom and peace. It is no longer something that may affect my life, it is a beautiful part of my life, and I am embracing it fully!
As I mentioned, I have a lot to learn and the great news is I am not going to ignore this any longer. I get to see this as a gift and learn to navigate my life with it! For that, I am blessed.